urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:xbetenoirx Shannon Shannon 2008-10-18T20:34:52Z urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:xbetenoirx:94429 2008-10-18T20:34:52Z 2008-10-18T20:34:52Z went to orlando on wednesday. ostrich bought a quitar and amp from sam ash then went to heathers. went clubbing at pulse which was fun. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:xbetenoirx:94180 2008-09-22T18:06:41Z 2008-09-22T18:06:41Z also...i think i know what i want to do with my life.<br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br />what do you make with coffee and comic books?<br />take a guess. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:xbetenoirx:93925 2008-09-22T17:59:08Z 2008-09-22T17:59:08Z well blah. its been almost 6 minthes and still no job. fuck the economy. with all the fucking places that i applied to..not one? come on..this is sad. maybe ill just start stripping hhahaha!<br /><br />we have our internet and cable back tho..tank god. and im looking into this school phlebotomay and ekg tech. sounds goodbut i have to get a job to pay for it.<br /><br />also my charges were dropped. thank god i just have to pay a 231 dollar fine by december.<br />adam is still dealing with his dui.<br /><br />oh and enemas are funny. i hadnt shit in like 4 days so went and got one..oh god...ill spare the details.<br /><br />also i think hookah bar then cold keg this thursday. that will be great. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:xbetenoirx:93223 2008-07-21T19:45:50Z 2008-07-21T19:45:50Z finished dress two. yay! urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:xbetenoirx:92939 2008-07-20T16:52:51Z 2008-07-20T16:52:51Z &nbsp;so i put the pic of all the shit i made..well not all of it up on my myspace. shitty camera so they dont look that good but in real life they actually came out pretty good.<br /><br />also<br /><br />went and saw the dark knight yesterday with adam and his dad. fucking awesome. i dont even like batman really and i even think it was totally sick.<br /><br />my dads b-day is comming up so that means ill be in melbourne for a few days. itll give me a break form here.<br />and a good show is on the 26th so im happy. ill probably get kristina to come with me..havnt hung out with her in a bit. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:xbetenoirx:92719 2008-07-17T19:14:42Z 2008-07-17T19:14:42Z so&nbsp; yesterday i sat down and chopped all my hair off. its really fucking short now. like..an inch long. sick. i love it but damn..now i really do look like a 12 year old boy with makeup on.<br />hahhahahaha<br /><br />ANNNNDDDDD!!!!<br />finished another shirt. its so cute. im taking pics today soo ill put all that up in like a few hours.<br />and good news<br />down to 109 again. good cause i was 116 like two weeks ago. felt like a fatass.<br /><br /><br /><br />ok so amber and april are peganant. thats like four girl i know who are now. jesus christ.&nbsp;<br />this some crazy shit right hurr.<br /><br /><br />last night went down to open mic night with adam lindsey and met up with kristina and them. saw orlando. got trashed and then came back.<br />i saw this kid who looked like nathan but older and more gay. and like dressed in black clockwork orange clothing. fucking funny.&nbsp;<br /><br />going to see darknight on saturday. YAY!!!!!!<br />and that is me and adams four months. im really happy. love this kid. for realz. lol urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:xbetenoirx:92453 2008-07-15T14:36:04Z 2008-07-15T14:36:04Z so&nbsp; i have three shirts and one halfmade dress. its hot. yellow satin bubble dress. got the fabric for a dollar a yard at walmat. all i need is a zipper and some minor things about the bubble. and ta-da!! a hot yellow bubble dress that could probably sell for like 100 bucks. since i looked up prices of shit that looked similair..thats about how much they go for. sick!!<br />and finished one of adams ed shirts. ill post a pic in awhile. its sick lookin. gott alove being productive. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:xbetenoirx:92356 2008-07-08T15:36:14Z 2008-07-08T15:36:14Z <p>&nbsp;gah...bored. and no more babysitting. so no more money. time to find a real job.<br />i need a car.<br />and new clothes.<br />i hate being poor.</p><p>oh but me and adam are starting our clothes line this weekend. his mom is going to buy the shirts and fabric paint and shit to stencil with so thats pretty fucking sick. im really excited.</p><p>&nbsp;</p> urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:xbetenoirx:91981 2008-06-30T20:55:45Z 2008-06-30T20:55:45Z cant wait or fourth of july. im excited!!! i love this holiday. bbq and fireworks. awesome.<br />also. i have to get my cat Milo fixed soon. hes starting to get boners like every two seconds. im afraid hes going to start spraying soon. gah!<br />i think im gonna trim my hair today. then off to exercise. ive been slacking like a beast lately. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:xbetenoirx:91870 2008-06-24T19:41:16Z 2008-06-24T19:41:16Z soooo<br /><br />havnt really been doing much.&nbsp;<br />hung out with krystina the other night. ya..thats how fucking bored ive been. awesome right?<br />adam is on some wierd ana binge where hes eating only a can of sting beans a day. 60 calories a day. crazy. he thinks he has something to prove because everyone thinks its this really cool fad or something..so hes doing this like documentary to show whats its really like having an eating disorder. i personally think its crazy but whatever.<br /><br />heres what he has to say..<br /><br /><br />To all you pro ana and mia lemmings.<br style="DISPLAY: none" /><br />[READ] <br />Body: its become apparent that the next cool thing to do is to claim pro ana or mia.<br style="DISPLAY: none" /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br />let me explain something to you little fools just because you were born 5'6 and up and weigh 90 pounds like dumbass dan fortman and his little 15 year old scene slut followers doesn't give you the right to claim pro ana or mia so im now going to show you all what that lifestyle is all about <br /><br />im 5'11 <br />i currently weigh 174.8 pounds i was [NOT] made to be lower then 140 for the next 60 days i will be taking in 60 calories a day with only water to drink i will attempt to reach 128 pounds i will also post a pic every10 days or so.<br style="DISPLAY: none" /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br />you trend followers are fucking stupid and dont know anything about willpower.. <br /><br /><br /><br />allow me to show you.<br /><br />--------------------------------------------<br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br />SOOO this should be pretty interesting..<br style="DISPLAY: none" /><br /> urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:xbetenoirx:91179 2008-06-08T17:51:30Z 2008-06-08T17:51:30Z &nbsp;alighty. so i dyed my hair and cut it all off again. its a dark burgandy over my light brown so it looks awesome. and my hair is stright bangs in the front long sides to my chin and short pixie-ish in the back. fucking love it.<br />and--im not doing anything toda. im havin screaming shits and my stomach wont stop cramping.. SORRY NIKI!!!!<br />ELLE-- you sould send my those pics from the other night. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:xbetenoirx:90600 2008-05-31T19:45:17Z 2008-05-31T19:45:17Z <p>&nbsp;so my ultra sound went good i guess. turns out its just a random lump of flesh in my ovaries. i thought for sure i was going to be pregnant because its stopping my period. but cool i guess. thank god im not. they said if it starts hurting to have it removed but since its not hurting yet it should be fine. lol. its the size of a 7 week old baby. thats why my doctor thought i was pregnant. good huh?<br />somthing about it being a fuck up of my past abortion? awesome.</p><p>now im off to find batteries so i can send a slaute to get my old myspace back. fun fun.<br /><br />also. how the fuck do you put pictures on this shit. because when i go to put one on via the little button when you post this shit..it doesnt work. and i tried all the links. it used to work. but now it doesnt. and its rally pissing my off. help plz?</p> urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:xbetenoirx:90147 2008-05-29T14:24:06Z 2008-05-29T14:24:06Z my life as a ghost-tanya donelly &nbsp;alrighty..so.adam beat the shit outta dan last night. if you ask me he was asking for it.&nbsp;<br />i need to cut my hair. really bad. it looks like a bad beatles bowl cut. goddamn. lol last night i dressed up as a scene slut. that was fun.<br />ELLE--- you should send me that picture. it was funny.<br />also. im back down to 105. thank god. even thought its fluctuating terribly. i just cant get it to stick.<br />ill get it. 5 away. and im excercising now so it wont be hard. i got this son.<br />lol. hung out with chris gillford this weekend. random? and i happened upon tim and the whole retard crew last night. that meaning ostrich dameek and krystina. yuck. drunken assholes. i guess they pee on each other now? thats hot. hhahahahaha. they are moving on wednesday to bum fuck nowhere. thank god. thatll be nice.<br />doctors today. getting tested. my vag groped and getting meds for my horrid cold i have kicking right about now.<br />i guess i should go smear some makeup on my face and get down to my rents house.gotta get money from my mom.<br />peace urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:xbetenoirx:89777 2008-05-12T17:49:19Z 2008-05-12T17:49:19Z &nbsp;yesterday was mothers day. adams mom had a bbq. got kinda drunk. his family is really nice.<br />went and saw my mom. gave her a card i made for her adn it made her cry. it was cute.<br />i think im depressed. ick.<br />and im stressed about some pretty big shit that i dont want to have to do again. i mean if it happenes it happenes but shit. ew.<br />also. im back up to 108. how gross. i feel utterly disgusted with myself right about now. ill fix it. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:xbetenoirx:89095 2008-04-20T17:49:31Z 2008-04-20T17:49:31Z some hardcore shit. &nbsp;oh god.. miss saxmen or whatever was over here last night. that fat bitch still looks the same.&nbsp;<br /><br />got a new dress at goodwill. its kind of frumpy but in a totally cute art fag kind of way. hahah<br /><br />welt to amys party the other night. augh. i hate it when little kids try to act more mature than everybody else. i mean jesus. loosen up. your not fucking dead yet. i got called a child cause i was having a laughing fit in the kitchen. oh mah gawd..that is so imature!!<br />the onlt cool kids there were the fucking beer chugging jocks. as usuaull. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:xbetenoirx:89023 2008-04-17T16:55:11Z 2008-04-17T16:55:11Z the sea and cake- an echo in &nbsp;so&nbsp;we got elle&nbsp;to find her gag reflex.<br />today i start over. been doing really bad lately.<br />im really sick of fighting. if im being too honest well then. suck it. im done being the push over little bitch. ive relized ive been doing that all my life and im just a little bit tired of it. i saw at as being nice but really its just me being a evasive indecisive little cunt. hahahaha.<br />also.&nbsp;<br />106 BITCH!!!!<br />oh ya. and thats a steady. not just a morning wiegh-in. so ya i think im doing pretty damn good.<br />syb!!<br />and those who have a problem with that. fuck off. my life. not yours. its my steady constant challenge. so dont say shit son.<br /><br />oh and avatar has sucked me in. getting drunk and watching that with my friends is awesome.&nbsp;<br />so is huffing antifreeze. LOL urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:xbetenoirx:88819 2008-04-13T01:37:42Z 2008-04-13T01:37:42Z <p>so ya. been having fun lately. except for some of my good friends being mad over something i dont even know about. what the hell is that. hannah is back from orlando. went over there with elle and dan and adam and got fucking shitfaced.<br /><br />ELLE--- if you read this..i left a bag of clothes in your car. cause im a fucking retard.</p> urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:xbetenoirx:88527 2008-04-10T17:51:13Z 2008-04-10T17:51:13Z ladytron-cease2exist its that time of the month again.&nbsp;<br /><br />also. let me clear some shit up. for the assholes that like to talk shit. i do NOT go to mcdonalds and then eat laxatives.&nbsp;<br />i dont even eat mcdonalds anymore. and ive only taken those like a few times in my entire life. so quit the shit talking. end of story.<br /><br /><br />adam went back to bayside last night after my dad freaked out on him. awesome. my dads a fucking freak.<br />i think i might moive in with him ot there. itll be boring but i cant be away from him for more than a day or i go crazy. im seriously&nbsp;a whore&nbsp;for that kid.<br /><br /><br />oh and krystina finally snapped. crazy little rich girl. she squirted toothpaste all over adam shit so we had to go get it last night and then ostrich tried to fight adam. it was fucking rediculous. whatever. they all have hpv. so i hope there happy with there orgy having shit. freaks. im not going over there untill them two move out. i still love becca and orlando but damn. they are all insane. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:xbetenoirx:88178 2008-04-03T15:20:08Z 2008-04-03T15:20:08Z dead milkmen- big lizard in my backbard still sick. weak.. and i miss my adam. ugh.<br />i have no phone and no cable. my parents are boycotting or something stupid. wtf<br />i think ill do my extensions today and clean. maybe do the floors. yaa...my life is sucking right about now.&nbsp;<br />im poor. im black.. im a woman. and im ugly.<br />lofl. if you dont get that your dumb.<br />also. i have pics to post and my fu\king software is being&nbsp;is peice and wont install right. mother fucker. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:xbetenoirx:87854 2008-04-01T21:08:33Z 2008-04-01T21:10:37Z i know a girl who smells of rust,<br />Of dried blood.<br />Some say that its the smell of her fury. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:xbetenoirx:87732 2008-03-30T22:44:27Z 2008-03-30T22:44:27Z Grand national- talk amongst yourselves Ugh..im so sick. tomorrow starts my week long. me and Adam aren't gonna see each other for a week.fast.then meet back up next sunday. this should be good.<br />watched the color purple today. fucking love that movie. makes me cry every time.<br />oh and im making Adam a shirt that says Bitches Love Collar Bones. awesome. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:xbetenoirx:87507 2008-03-28T03:32:44Z 2008-03-28T03:32:44Z so ive been hanging over at rebeccas nonstop. and orlando has officially joined our group. as of now him and rebecca are fucking like rabbits. they are crazy cute together. even tho there both fucking insane.and dameek did a beer run last night. some good semaritan decided to chase us and grabbed my beer but dameek got away with his. i dont think ive ran that fast in quite some time.<br />found out adam talked shit to askley about me. saying how i was no better than kristina and that im a dirty whore. ya. awesome. so i called him out on it right in fron tof everybody and embarrased the shit outta him. serves him right. bastard. then i got all drunk.(ya i know) and apologized and started crying over how much of a bitch i was. and you know what? i dont even think he apologized to me. so once again. i give in to him being an asshole. again. god i make myself sick. he calls me whore all day everyday and i just sit there and take it like a bitch., and then when i call him out i just cry and crawl back into his arms. how fucking pathetic. love sucks man. i strongly recomend everybody avoid it. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:xbetenoirx:87083 2008-03-26T18:05:23Z 2008-03-26T18:05:23Z i miss some of my old friends.<br />i miss the fun i used to have.<br />i need out of this town.<br />god im sad today.<br />i need poeple in my life that arent in it anymore.<br />i just want to say that im sorry i ever hurt you..i miss talking to you. you know who you are. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:xbetenoirx:86902 2008-03-26T00:54:55Z 2008-03-26T00:54:55Z oh my gawd. got my first tattoo. a heart on my hip. by a drunken Orlando. awesome. then we had this bright idea to go steal eric from drakes. totally didnt work. i guess he already has a new fuck buddy and doesnt really want rebecca back at all. oh well.<br />so dan got a huge dick on his arm. then freaked out when he sobored up. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:xbetenoirx:86662 2008-03-24T15:27:02Z 2008-03-24T15:27:02Z my legs are so sunburnt.<br />adam and dan are fighting. why do my best friend and the kid i love have to fight? this is some bullshit.<br />also. the chemical brothers rock so hard it makes me dizzy.<br />job shit today. hope it doesnt rian.<br />gotta call my po today. i think i have a bench warrent out for my arrest. ewwwww. wouldnt that just kick some shit. id get 30 days. ick.